Who will I turn to?

I treat myself as a kid with no parents.
Every day, I wait for them to come home even if it means having dinner at 9plus.
Starving, I just wait and wait and wait, have dinner together but they're
always in a rush like in 15mins eat finish already and they are always talking about
work/office/getting a promotion. Please la, I'm not gonna be boastful but my daddy is
already a General Manager then still want promotion? Mummy is data accountant. What more does she want.
Really pissed to the core.
And I am independent right now.
I walk alone, though things changed.
I may be hanging out with people who I am not suppose to hang out with my but I don't care.
I'm still thinking of my future right.
Whatever it is, I can only have Sundays with my parents. They are always talking about working life. And dinner is ALWAYS at home. You know how boring it is?

They said they're having stress then what about me?

I dont want my 2 younger brothers, especially the P2 one to grow up on the wrong path. And I dont want my older brother to become bad to worse. I'm already in deep shit tomorrow/later miss siti saw me outside school loitering with Freda, Janan and co. DIE LA -.-

About my parents. . .I've been keeping it to myself for 1,2,3 ... 5 months. Why cant I just like take a knife and stab myself to death. Then see what happens when I die? They'll probably be still talking about their bloody office la. Knn.

Thanks bestie and thankyou dear(:
loveeeeeee